Once real love has touched your heart and filled your soul, like breathing the warm safe waters of the womb, broken love can be devastating. A setback to life that can stifle confidence and joy for months, years, even decades. After all attempts at therapeutic purges of anguish and anger, medicating, depression, or just screaming into the anonymous hurricane winds, trust remains broken but you carry on. Regaining enough trust to even consider speaking of a personal future with others, seems the distant dream of another alien you. Time marches on and potential partners pass with every unfair comparison to similar memories or moments that revisit the fear of touching that singular moment of emotional violation. Guilt builds as you race through life empty, knowing time should heal the wound, but won't. It becomes easier to accept you are alone and that ultimate type of symbiotic love relationship with another human being is momentary or only for the lucky few.
To this I can say only, Bullshit! Hogwash! Monkeyshine! Yes a broken heart hurts, yes it takes time to heal it, but if you truly wish to love, there is plenty of it out there. First find a way to love yourself. You can't truly love anybody else unless you can accept your own persona as a gift worth giving to another. Why would you give a gift to someone you care for, that YOU don't even want. Second love a lot. love people, love dogs, love kids, love movies, love music, love living and that love will carry you. Third love higher, don't obsess about another. study them, serve them, seduce them, and when warranted spank them, but never even hope to own them. Love comes back around and even though you may believe an adult cannot remember how to breath the warm womb like waters of love after losing them, you will remember. In a movie called The Abyss, star Ed Harris wore an oxygenated water breathing system for a deep sea dive, and like his crew told him as panic took his mind and the waters filled his mask"the first breath is a shock but your body will remember, it will remember! breath easy, you'll be just fine".
-Hermit King-
Orig Published 12/09
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